— | Thomas B. Guyton |
God. Never felt so irritated and pissed off in a long while. Long, long while. Got so pissed i was literally shaking. Ah. Its been a long time. I think its just her. I seriously think its just her. Fuck. Ugh. Forever so critical and.. act until she’s god-like. Pardon me for all the hurtful things here i spew because well i’m fucking pissed. Yay.
So fucking glad i’m not going to go to lectures with her anymore. Well, for most of them at least. Seem to have too many lesson stuff in common to not meet. Unfortunately. Maybe i’m just a fucking shitty friend. Well guess what… maybe you just don’t get to see the better side of me. So high up in your pedestal. I think we’re just people from two different galaxies. And you have a way lower tolerance level than most people. -_- I guess the first time i tried to make friends with you should have gave me a hint. What a pity i was blind then.
Well maybe i should grow up too. Maybe then i won’t be blogging about this thing here. Oh well. What to do. Don’t have many i pour my heart out to. Except my sis. But she’s around at the moment so. Meh.
Anyways, ranting aside. I feel slightly better. Except i really don’t want to talk to her anymore. Meh. Wanted to type more but eh… Why bother. I have to go read protocols 😦 which i really don’t want to but i have to…
Sadly i’ve been learning this and honestly if i tried harder i might just stab myself.
— | hereswhereifloat |
— | tabmiller2566 |
-shz
There were days where i would say perhaps i had nothing to offer. But i guess those days are gone. Because once you do more things, you realise you do have things to offer, just whether you want to or not. The gesture of offering itself, is something that only you, and only you can give.
And once again 21 is approaching. Perhaps my time is up. Or is it? I don’t know. Haven’t made a decision. Not sure if i’ll ever make one. But i do get to be overseas before i turn 21. If i get in that is. Hm. Decisions decisions. I suck at making them.
Wanted to post something emo-ish. But this song is always nice so… Meh. What have i turned into. -_-